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Whether out of annoyance at having to work on New Year’s eve, or because he’d started the festive drinking early, Vinokurov kicked, cursed and beat Abdulla before throwing him into the solitary cell. Abdulla wanted to strangle his tormenter, but his hands were shackled and he hadn’t the courage to use his teeth. He could only bite his lips till they bled. |
Янги йил аламини олдими, ўшанда Абдулладан қияпешона Винокурови, ё Янги йил қилиб аввалдан ичиб олган эканми, роса тепкилади, сўкди, урди маҳбусни ва чалажон ҳолатда, якка камерага ташлади. Бўғзига ёпишай деса - қўллари кишанланган, тишлай деса - номардлик, лабини қон қилиб тишлаганича Оллоҳга солди бу безанглаган маҳлуқни Абдулла... |
You get used to physical pain: you synchronise your breathing to its throbbing waves, you are ready for the waves to surge up and you can wait for the waves to die down. But the pains of humiliation are unbearable, and it is impossible to endure the suffering caused by your own helplessness. At first Abdulla attributed Vinokurov’s brutality to the fact that he was a Russian, but he then recalled that among the men who searched his house there had been an interrogator who spoke Uzbek like a Tatar, replacing all his ‘j’s with ‘y’s. |
Лўққиллаган оғриққа ҳам кўникса бўларкан: нафасингни оғриқ тўлқинларига мослайсан-да, бу мавжнинг авжини атайин кутасан, лекин адолатсизлик аламига чидаб бўлмайди, кучсизлик азобига бардош бериш қийин. Абдулла аввалига анавининг бағритошлигинию юрагини анор қилиб эзган бу оғриқни унинг ўрислигига йўйди, бироқ уйидан чиқаверишида афтидан андироқ татар терговчининг “ий”лаганроқ талаффузидаги гаплари эсига тушди: “Сини биз билябиз. Уртақларинг барлиғини бизгя йеткургянляр...” |
In prison you can’t avoid getting a kicking. In 1926, too, Abdulla had been beaten within an inch of his life. What made his blood boil was not the physical pain so much as the treachery of his own people, black-eyed blood relatives whom he had trusted and considered to be friends. Back then he’d begged for death’s release: that would have been easier to bear than the company of his own black-eyed friends. He’d been too young then: he hadn’t thought of his children, nor of Rahbar. |
Қамоқ борки қамоқда тепки емасдан қолмайсан. 26-нчи йили ҳам Абдуллани ўлардек тепкилашган. Унда ўзининг эгиз ўзбеклари. Лекин унда ҳам юрагини қон қилгани бу тепкилару муштлар эмас, ўзи ишонган, ўзи дўст деб тутинган қора кўзларнинг хиёнати бўлган эди. Ўшанда шу қора кўзларга қайта қараш ўрнига маҳкамадан тузукроғи уни отиб ташлашни сўраган эди. Ўшанда бебок ёшлик ғурурида на бола-чақасини, на Раҳбарини ўйлаган экан... |
Had Rahbar given the children the oranges he’d meant for them? Tomorrow (but wasn’t it tomorrow already?) Abdulla had planned to take them to see the New Year fir at the Railway Workers’ Palace, where the biggest and best celebrations were supposed to take place. Last year the children’s favourites had been the trained dogs which answered questions and took turns pulling each other round on sleighs. Would Rahbar take them this time, and would they be allowed in if she did? Might they find themselves turned away at the doors, as the family of an arrested man? His heart sank at the thought. |
Бердимикан Раҳбар-бону болаларига аталган норинжларни? Эртага (ё аллақачон бугунми?) Абдулла болаларини Темир йулчилар саройига арча байрамига олиб бориши керак эди. Темир йулчилар саройида арчаларнинг ҳам энг каттаси, томошанинг ҳам энг сараси бўлгич эди. Ўтган йили болаларига айниқса одам гапига жавоб берувчи қирриқ итлар ёққан эди. Кейин бу ажойиб маҳлуқлар бир-бирини чанада басма-бас тортиб кетишган эди. Олиб борармикан Раҳбар болаларини, ё олиб борса-да энди қўйишмасмикан уларни? Эшик тагидан ҳайдармикин баттоллар, қамалганнинг болалари деб? Юраги бирам эзилди болаларини эслаб. |
Chief Minister Hakim kept the gates shut, as he had promised Nasrullo. Nasrullo moved with his elite troops towards Bukhara, but Husayn fired on the rebel army with artillery and rifles. They got as far as the fortress walls, and Husayn fought them at the mint next to the fortress, where they had taken cover. |
Ҳаким-қушбеги, Арк дарвозасини берк тутиш ваъдасини Насруллоҳ-тўрага бермаганми, ул зот аскари билан Бухоро томон силжиганини билгач, Ҳусайн-тўра унинг исёнкор тарафдорларини ўқу-милтиққа тутди. Лекин булар Арк деворлари тагига етишган, Ҳусайн-тўра эса ўз маҳрамлари ила ўзларини Арк ёнидаги пул зарбхонасининг панасига олишганди. |
Then Chief Minister Hakim ordered rocks and beams to be hurled down from the fortress walls onto Husayn’s troops. One of these missiles struck Husayn’s head: he was bleeding badly, but would not retreat. Instead, his men – enraged at the sight of their injured prince – climbed over the barriers and rushed to the fortress gates, smashing them down with the same rocks that had been hurled at them. |
Шу учур Ҳаким-қушбеги буларнинг бошига Арк деворларидан тошу-ғўлалар ёғдириш буйруғини қилди. Тошлардан бири келиб Ҳусайн-тўра бошини ёрди. Қонга буланса-да, тўра шаштидан қайтмади. Қайтага жароҳатланган шаҳзодани кўриб, халойиқ жунбушу уштулумга келди. Басталигу чеплар оша, энди булар ўқу тошбўронга ҳам қарамай, Арк дарвозасига ёпишдилар ва ерга сочилган тошлар ила уни уриб синдиришди. |
As a drop becomes a rivulet, and a rivulet a river, and a river a torrent, so the men broke into the fortress in a matter of hours, pouring in until they had flooded it. The wounded prince Husayn rode through the open gates as the new Emir. Despite extensive searches, the rebellious vizier Hakim was nowhere to be found. Shortly afterwards he appeared before the Emir of his own accord, carrying the severed head of his chief of artillery. ‘Forgive your servant: I was in the grip of ignorance, when this ungrateful dog started firing |
Томчи сув кетидан фаврак, фаврак кетидан оқим, оқим кетидан сел келганидек, бир заҳоти оламон Аркка сизди, ёпирилди, босиб кетди. Яраланган шаҳзода Ҳусайн Аркка амирсимон кириб борди. Бузғунчи Ҳаким-қушбегини қидиришди, ҳеч қаердан топишолмади. Ўшанда бир пайт, тўпчи Ражабнинг олинган калласи қўлида, Ҳаким-қушбеги Амир олдига ўзи чиқиб келди. “Бир қошиқ қонимдан кечинг, ғафлат уйқусида қолибман, мана бу кўрнамак эса сиз Хумоюн ҳазратларига Арк дарвозасини очиш ўрнига ўт очибди!” – дея, кўплаб тавозеълар қилди. Ҳусайн-тўра унинг гуноҳидан кечиб, марҳум отаси йўлида ўз вазири қилиб тайинлади. |
The next day Husayn was crowned Emir, but he did not hold power for long; a mysterious illness forced him off the throne in less than three months. The doctors failed to conjure one of their miracles, and Emir Husayn left this world of sorrows. When Nasrullo heard what had happened, his thoughts turned to his master chef, who he had only recently sent to serve his brother Husayn as a peace-offering: ‘Seems the bastard took his arsenic with him’. Then he gathered his army and set off for Bukhara once again. |
Эртасига Ҳусайн-тўрани Амир қилиб тахтга кўтаришди, бироқ тахтни эгаллаганидан сал ўтмай, Амир Ҳусайн бир номаълум касалга чалиниб, масиҳонафас табибларнинг муолажа уринишлари зое кетиб, салтанати уч ойга етар-етмас дунё омонатини қўлдан бой берди. Насруллоҳхон баковулини ҳадъя тариқасида саройга юборган эди, “Маргимушини ҳам ўзи билан олиб кетибди-йўв бу аблаҳ!” - деб ўйлади ўзича у, яна черигини Бухоро томон тортар экан... |
His father was right when he said that a man can be in thrall to devils, especially if he is a writer. You have only to set to work to be gripped by your plans and inventions, and everything else seems vanity, triviality, a distraction. Over the last month Abdulla had covered reams of paper, having told himself: If I can sit down on my own this winter, I will finish writing the novel. And now all those hopes had been dashed. The Tatar NKVD man had found the manuscript, stuffed it in the only suitcase in the house, and taken it |
Чиндан ҳам отаси айтмиш, жин босар экан, ёзувчи одамни. Ишга киришдингми – зикру хаёлинг ана ўша тўқимада, қолгани - фақат алахсиш, фақат чалғишдек туюлар экан. Ўтган ой ичида анча-мунча қоғозларни қоралаб қўйди Абдулла, айтмовдими: “Шу қиш узлат қилиб ўтирсам, қиссани ёзиб битказаман” - деб. Афсус, ишнинг белига от тепди. Анави анди татар топган қўлёзмасини уйдаги биттаю битта жомадонга босиб, ўзи билан олиб келди. Ўқирмикан барини? Эскичага кўзи ўтармикан? Ё яна ўзининг қора кўзларидан ёллаб, уларга ўқитармикан? |
Why hadn’t Abdulla begun his story with a description of the bunch of grapes? He might have got away with saying that this was just a little sketch of a fictitious gardener. But now his pieces would certainly damn him. Thoughts have strange paths, indeed. |
Нега ахир узум ғужумидан бошлагани йўқ, боғбонлар ҳаётидан бир асарча деб қўя қолармиди. Ҳали бунисини ҳам унинг бўйнига қўйишса керак. Хаёл йўллари ажиб. |
Take now, for instance: is Abdulla trying to lull his sense of pain and humiliation? Or are the habits of many years taking over so that even here, lying in this God-forsaken place, after letting his head fall on the pillow and saying his evening prayer, he lets his thoughts roam free of whatever was shackling them, free of anything that has nothing to do with the task in hand: writing? But he hadn’t yet pronounced the words of the prayer, ‘I lie down in peace’… | Бадану руҳ оғриғини тахайюлига белаб, улоқтирилган ерида ўзини уйқулатмоқчими Абдулла? Ё йиллар давомида орттирган одати - бошини ёстиққа қўйиб: “Ётдим тинч” дуосидан сўнг хаёл жиловини озод қўйиб юбориши бу ерда ҳам, муздек ва зах цемент устида ўз кучини кўрсатяптими... “Ётдим тинч”ни ўқигани йўқку ахир... |
Abdulla had described every detail of Khan Umar’s first wedding: the ceremony in the state palace, the dancing and the games, the laughter and the joyful voices. The drumbeats that shook the sky’s blue dome when the people heard that the newly-weds had retired. The intoxicating joy which foamed in chalices while the sound of music filled hearts with delight and ecstasy. | Амир Умархоннинг биринчи тўйини эринмай ёзган эди Абдулла. Давлат саройидаги жамшидий базм барпосинию, ўйин-кулги ва шодлик садосини. Иқбол ноғораси овози осмоннинг зумрад гумбазини тутишинию, масрурлик овозаси одам аҳли қулоғига етишини. Қувонч бодаси шодлик қадахида кўпирганинию, муғаннийлар навоси юракларни шавқу-завқ ила ўпирганини... |
That same morning Hakim brought the girl home with him, entrusting her to the care of his mother Oftob. Delighted by the bride’s beauty, the young matchmaker recited a Persian couplet to his mother: | Ўша саҳарнинг ўзидаёқ Муҳаммадҳакимхон-тўра ул бокира қизни ўз қўшига келтириб, Амир Умархоннинг сингли бўлмиш Офтоб-онасига топширибди. Қиз чиройидан ёқасини тишлаган совчи йигит ўз онасига ушбу байтни айтибди. |
The poor girl arrived wearing an old dress: Emir Umar was in a hurry to marry, so he dressed her in silk and ordered the old gown be given to his concubines, since it was too sacred to be thrown away. The concubines spurned the offer… | Бечора қиз ўзининг эски кўйлагида экан. Амир Умархон ўз қайлиғини кўргани келиб, уни шоҳона атласу ҳарирларга ўратгач, бу кўйлакни табаррук қатори канизларга бермоқчи бўлишса, буларнинг бари у кўйлакдан ижирғанган экан. |
For a moment, Abdulla didn’t know whether to laugh or to weep. Was there nobody left to keep that monster company, so that he had to remind people, if only the prisoners, that he still existed? Or had he got drunk with the soldiers on guard and was yelling this at them? | Бир зумга Абдулла на кулишини, на йиғлашини билмай қолди. Бу девнинг ҳам атрофида ҳеч ким қолмабдими, ёлғизлигидан мана маҳбусларга бўлса-да ўз зорлигинию, ўз борлигини изҳор этяпти. Ё қоровул аскарлари билан ичиб олиб, уларга ҳайқирганими буниси? |
It was now New Year. Happy New Year to you, Abdulla! You said that if you could sit down for one winter, you would finish your novel. Clearly, you didn’t say inshallah at the time. But you had sensed the danger. Writers as well-known as you had already been arrested – Fitrat and Cho’lpon, G’ozi Yunus and Anqaboy – hadn’t they? Were you really likely to be left alone? When you tell a horse to ‘Chuh’, you have given it a bit more rope. He can go on writing for a bit, they would have thought, we’ll squash him when the time is ripe. |
Янги йил ҳам кирибди. Янги йилингиз муборакбод, Абдулла! Бир қиш ўтирсам қиссамни ёзиб битираман, - деган эдингиз. Худо хоҳласа демаган экансиз-да ўшанда. Кўнглингизда бор эдию бу хатар, ахир Фитрату Чўлпон, Вадуд Маҳмуду Ғози Юнус, Анқабою Элбекни олиб кетган жойда сизни тинч қўйишармиди?! “Чўҳ”- деса кетадиган от экансиз, арқонингизни узунроқ ташлаб қўйишган экан-да, “Қани ёзиб турсинчи, роса қизиғида босамиз”, - дейишган эканми. |
You’ll spend the new year wherever you spent New Year’s day, as the Russian proverb goes. So, Abdulla, it looks as if you’ll be spending this year in prison. Last time you were let out after six months, but now… Fitrat and Cho’lpon have been languishing here for longer than that time already, and who knows when they’ll be released? There might just be a few walls separating them from you, Abdulla. If you were to yell out like Vinokurov, might you get an answer? |
Янги йилни қаерда кутиб олсанг, йилинг ҳам шундай ўтади, - деган ўрислардан юққан бир ирим бор эди, қамоқда ўтказар экансиз-да бу йилни, Абдулла! Ўтган сафар олти ой деганда қўйиб юборишган эди, бу сафар ана Фитратнинг ҳам, Чўлпониннг ҳам қамоққа тушганига ярим йилдан ошиб кетди. Чиқишидан дом-дарак бўлгани йўқ. Улар ҳам шу атрофдамикан? Бир-икки девор наримикан? Анави барзанги Винокуровга ўхшаб ҳайқирса, жавоб беришармикан?! |
Because of his youth and naughtiness, your humble servant continued sitting by the curtain and, following the path of disrespect, raised a corner of the cover to hide under it so that he could enjoy the spectacle of the Sun meeting the Moon. The wine of desire foamed in the throat of Emir Umar- xon, and the moisture of shame appeared on the face of the beauty, like drops of dew on a rose. Moments of tenderness and elegant caresses were becoming more and more wild: the buyer’s desire grew, while the mistress of the goods gave ever greater concessions. For rain, ready to show the cloud’s final aim, was now about to pour down on the field of desire. The flower bud, submitting to the playful brazenness of the wind, was forced to unfurl its petals and turn itself bright red. And since the innate urge of the flower bud was to bear fruit, it opened fully under the force of the wind, so that a pearly drop now fell on its pollen. |
Аммо камина ҳам айни ёшлик даврим бўлгани учун ва ҳам бир томони шўхлик қилиб ҳеч ёққа қўзғалмадим ва беадаблик йўлига кириб чимилдиқнинг бир чекасида бекинганча, ул ой ва қуёшнинг яқинлашувини тўйиб томоша қилдим. Ҳуллас ўша чоғда Амир Умархоннинг димоғида жуфтлашиш шароби кўпирди, ул дилрабо юзида эса ҳаё тори шабнам донасидек намоён бўлди. Нозу-ниёз лаҳзалари қизиди - ҳаридор иштиёқи кучайиб, мол эгаси мулойимлиги ортди. Чунки орзу кишининг булути мақсадини ҳосил қилиш учун мурод пардаси ортида шай турарди. Гулғунча шамолнинг уятсизлиги натижасида қабога бандини ечишга мажбур бўлди ва ўзининг гулгунлиқ оғушига солди. Омонлик суманининг ғунчаси мақсади ҳосиллик насими ҳилпираши сабабидан оғзини очди ва мақсуд бўстонидан кумуш ранг садафга симоб гавҳари томчилади. |
By whispering these words as if they were a prayer, Abdulla found that he could order his thoughts and see everything clearly. Hadn’t he just responded to Vinokurov’s roar with a burst of laughter? That was why he had recalled Hakim hiding behind a curtain. For a second, he felt as if he were Emir Umar’s nephew, except the curtain was now a stone wall and enclosed not a love scene but a death act. Wait, wait! This was no time to drop the reins. Watch out, don’t let a torrent of flighty thoughts sweep you away! If you ignored the superfluous florid style, the scene was described splendidly, especially the beginning and the end. Yet it seemed to have propelled Abdulla in an entirely different direction. |
Абдулла бу сўзларни дуосимон пичирлар экан, хаёли ҳар томонга тўзиди. Қийшиқпешона Винокуровнинг наъраси ҳам унинг кулгисини қистатмаганмиди ҳозиргина. У ҳам ўзини бир зумга чимилдиқ кетида писиб ётган Ҳакимхон-тўрага менгзатди, рост, бу чимилдиқнинг деворлари тош, остида эса севги эмас ўлим ҳукмрон эди. Тўхта, тўхта! Жиловни қўлингдан чиқариш вақти эмас бу. Учқур хаёлинг обқочиб кетмасин сени. Жимжимадоргилиги демаса саҳна ажойиб ёзилган, айниқса бошию кети, лекин Абдулла ундан азбарои бошқа туртки олди ўхшайди. |
Oyxon was the eldest daughter of a revered hereditary sayid, G’ozi-xo’ja. She was not yet eighteen, but her many worries made her so serious that she was often mistaken for a younger sister of her mother Qantak. In the first days of the winter of 1232, their city O’ratepa was seized by Umar; all the sayids, including G’ozi-xo’ja, were arrested and shackled. Their property confiscated, they were driven out of their houses into the thick winter snow, crowded into wagons and packed off to Kokand. Oyxon was then fifteen. When they reached Kokand, cold and hungry, they found Umar still angry: he sent them even further, to Shahrixon. The family was so destitute that a flat loaf of bread seemed a gift from heaven, a set of old clothes a precious luxury. |
Ойхон-пошша Сайид Ғози-хожа ҳазратларининг тўнғич қизи эди. Ўн саккизга ҳали кириб-кирмаган бу қиз ёш умрига қарамай кўпни кўрганиданми ўз онаси Қантак пошшога қиз эмас, сингил қатори эди. 1232-нчи йилнинг Жадий ойида улар туғилиб ўсган Ўратепани Хўқанд подшоҳи Амир Умархон босиб, сайидлар паноҳи Маҳмуд-хожаю, бошқа улуғ-улуғ ҳазратларнинг қўлларига кишан солганида, бало Сайид Ғози-хожанинг ҳам хонадонига кириб келди. Қишнинг қаттиқ совуғига қарамай буларнинг барини қор устида зор йиғлатиб бутун борлиғини мусодара қилишди-да, уловга солиб, Хўқанд томон бадарға қилишди. Ойхон-пошша ўшанда ўн беш ёшда эди. Оч-яланғоч булар Хўқандга етишгач, Амир Умархоннинг хожагонга қарши ғазаби битмай, Сайид Ғози-хожаю Ўратепа улусининг бошқа улуғларини ундан ҳам нари, Шаҳрихонга сургун қилди. Ул бечораларни шу қадар талашган эди-ки, бир кулча нон буларнинг кўзларига фалак чархи, жулдур кўйлак эса биҳишт ҳилъатидек кўринарди. |