It was significant that Abdulla’s novel began not with the miraculous discovery of the bunch of grapes, but with the game of bozkashi over the carcass of a goat.

Абдулланинг ўз қиссасини кеч кузда ғайбдан пайдо бўлган бир бошча узумдан эмас, улоқдан бошлаганича ҳам бор экан.

It was dark when the car came to a sudden halt and Abdulla lost the thread of his thoughts. They must have arrived at the prison. What had he been thinking about? Oh yes, the five bright-red oranges he hadn’t been able to give his children, now left in a house where the lights were out. When he was still very young, he’d written a story called ‘Devils’ Dance’ about something terrible that had happened to his father. Could Abdulla have been taken captive by devils, as his father was?

Шу пайт ичи қоронғи машина таққа тўҳтаб, Абдулланинг хаёлини узди. Манзилига етиб келишибди-да... Нималарни ўйлаётган эди боягинда. Ҳа, қандили ўчган уйдаги болаларига улашилмаган бешта қуёшранг норинж ҳақида... Аттанг-а! Йўқ, навқирон ёшлигида ёзган бир ҳикояси бўлгич эди. Отасининг бир ваҳимали саргузашти ҳақида. “Жинлар базми” деган... Отасига ўхшаб Абдулланиям жин босдими?

Hands cuffed, elbows gripped, Abdulla was taken down a dark staircase into the building’s basement. In one of the niches, by the dim light of the caged paraffin lamp, a swarthy Russian stuck his hands under Abdulla’s gown and poked in all his pockets, pulling out everything to the last penny, and then, after feeling his trousers, removed his thick leather belt. ‘Sign this!’ he barked, holding out a piece of paper. Abdulla gestured to his handcuffed wrists. ‘Well, scribbler,’ the guard laughed, ‘you’ve had your itchy little
hands put out of action!’ He kicked Abdulla in the knee so hard that the latter curled up in agony. ‘Hold the pen with your teeth,’ the Russian demanded.

Қўлида кишани билан Абдуллани қоронғу бинонинг қоронғу зиналари бўйлаб қоронғу ертўласига судрашди. Ертўланинг бир хонасида темир катакка илинган жинчироқ остида пешанаси кетга кетган бир барзангидек ўрис Абдулланинг чопони остига қўлини тиқиб, чўнтакларини кавлаб, сариқ чақагача бор пулини йиғиб олди-да, сўнг иштонига ёпишиб, ултон қамарини ечди. “Мана бунга имзо чек!” – деб бир парча қоғозни узатар экан, Абдулла қўлидаги кишанга имо қилган эди: “Ҳа, ёзувчишка, қичиган қўлларинг қисқарибди-да!” - деб тиззасига оғир ўтиги билан тепган эди, қимтилаб Абдулла чидаб бўлмас оғриқдан икки эгилди. “Тишла энди ручкани!” - деб ўшқирди бу бандибон жаллод.

‘Hold on, Vinokurov,’ said one of the men who had searched Abdulla’s house. ‘Watch you don’t finish him straight away, we’ve only just brought him in! I’ve still got to interrogate the son of a bitch.’ This man, evidently in charge, wished Vinokurov a Happy New Year before he left, presumably to celebrate with his own family.

“Қўй, Винокуров, - деб аралашгандек бўлди уйда тинтув қилганлардан бири, - келиши биланоқ ўлдириб юборма! Ҳали бу ифлосни сўроқ қилишим керак! Пока же в одиночку!” - деб буйруқ берди-да, анави онағар Винокуровни Янги йили билан табриклаб, ўзи уйга, оиласи билан байрамни кутгани кетишини айтдию маҳбусни Винокуров қарамоғида қолдирди.

You get used to physical pain: you synchronise your breathing to its throbbing waves, you are ready for the waves to surge up and you can wait for the waves to die down. But the pains of humiliation are unbearable, and it is impossible to endure the suffering caused by your own helplessness. At first Abdulla attributed Vinokurov’s brutality to the fact that he was a Russian, but he then recalled that among the men who searched his house there had been an interrogator who spoke Uzbek like a Tatar, replacing all his ‘j’s with ‘y’s.

Лўққиллаган оғриққа ҳам кўникса бўларкан: нафасингни оғриқ тўлқинларига мослайсан-да, бу мавжнинг авжини атайин кутасан, лекин адолатсизлик аламига чидаб бўлмайди, кучсизлик азобига бардош бериш қийин. Абдулла аввалига анавининг бағритошлигинию юрагини анор қилиб эзган бу оғриқни унинг ўрислигига йўйди, бироқ уйидан чиқаверишида афтидан андироқ татар терговчининг “ий”лаганроқ талаффузидаги гаплари эсига тушди: “Сини биз билябиз. Уртақларинг барлиғини бизгя йеткургянляр...”

Had Rahbar given the children the oranges he’d meant for them? Tomorrow (but wasn’t it tomorrow already?) Abdulla had planned to take them to see the New Year fir at the Railway Workers’ Palace, where the biggest and best celebrations were supposed to take place. Last year the children’s favourites had been the trained dogs which answered questions and took turns pulling each other round on sleighs. Would Rahbar take them this time, and would they be allowed in if she did? Might they find themselves turned away at the doors, as the family of an arrested man? His heart sank at the thought.

Бердимикан Раҳбар-бону болаларига аталган норинжларни? Эртага (ё аллақачон бугунми?) Абдулла болаларини Темир йулчилар саройига арча байрамига олиб бориши керак эди. Темир йулчилар саройида арчаларнинг ҳам энг каттаси, томошанинг ҳам энг сараси бўлгич эди. Ўтган йили болаларига айниқса одам гапига жавоб берувчи қирриқ итлар ёққан эди. Кейин бу ажойиб маҳлуқлар бир-бирини чанада басма-бас тортиб кетишган эди. Олиб борармикан Раҳбар болаларини, ё олиб борса-да энди қўйишмасмикан уларни? Эшик тагидан ҳайдармикин баттоллар, қамалганнинг болалари деб? Юраги бирам эзилди болаларини эслаб.

Abdulla recalled a day from his own childhood, when he had dressed up in new trousers and an Uzbek gown to go to the Christmas tree celebrations. The caretaker at his Russian-language school stopped him at the school gates. ‘Have you become a kaffir now?’ the man grumbled, raising his stick to deal Abdulla a terrific blow on the thigh. The literature teacher, seeing this, hurried over and rebuked him: ‘This is a celebration of the birth of Jesus son of Mary, and Jesus is a prophet of yours!’ Abdulla’s leg was bleeding and his new trousers were stained; he ended up visiting the hospital instead of the Christmas tree. The teacher drove him all the way home, in his own carriage: a Russian, who had defended him from an Uzbek. No, generosity or meanness had nothing to do with nationality.

Бир куни ўзининг болалигида ерли рус мактабида ўқиятган чоғи ҳавас қилиб башанг янги шим, янги чопонда арча байрамига келаётганида мактаб қоровули Холмирза-тажанг эшик тагида тутиб олиб: “Сан ҳам копир бўлдингми?” - деб балдоқи билан бола болдирига аямай тушириб қолганида, буни кўрган адабиёт ўқитувчиси Георгий Евстигнеевич, чолнинг олдига келиб, тоза сарт тилида: “Ахир Исо ибн Мариямнинг милоди бу. Исо сенинг ҳам пайғамбаринг-ку!” - деб айтганини эслади Абдулла. Ўшанда янги шимию оёғи қонга буланиб, арча байрамининг ўрнига Георгий Евстигнеевичнинг извошчигида аввал касалхона, сўнг уйига қайтган эди у. Йўқ, саҳоватинг ҳам, разолатинг ҳам миллати бўлмас экан.

Less than a week after the bozkashi game, another message came from Chief Minister Hakim in Bukhara to Nasrullo in Qarshi. ‘Your father, our benefactor, has ended his journey on earth and set off for the true world. We keep the fortress’s high gates locked, and we have not yet announced this news to anyone else. Take this opportunity: bring your troops at a gallop to holy Bukhara and occupy the place that befits you.’ Since all the preparations for this outcome had been made, Nasrullo set off for Bukhara that same day with three hundred warriors.

Ўлоқдан бирор ҳафта ўтар-ўтмас Ҳаким-қушбегидан яна чопар келди: “Падари бузрукворингизнинг жон қуши дорул фанодан дорул бақога риҳлат қилди. Аркнинг ундур дарвозасини берк тутгандек бу хабарни ҳам ҳануз сир тутяпмиз. Фурсатни ғанимат билиб, черик ила Бухорои шарифга чобук қатъи манозил айлагайсиз!” - дея. Тадорик кўрилган эмасми, уч юз навкар ила Насруллоҳ Бухоро томон юзланди.

But the cat had to be let out of the bag. The news of the grief that had overcome Emir Haydar’s harem spread like wildfire through the Bukhara markets and then the whole city. When the Emir’s eldest son Husayn heard the news, he too gathered his troops and dashed off to the fortress.

Аммо ойни этак билан ёпиб бўлармиди. Амир Хайдар ҳарамининг шўру-шайни ила хабар гузарма-гузар бутун шаҳарга тарқалди. Амирнинг тўнғич ўғли Ҳусайн-тўра андин воқиф ўлғач, ўз навкарлари ила Арк томон шошилди.

Chief Minister Hakim kept the gates shut, as he had promised Nasrullo. Nasrullo moved with his elite troops towards Bukhara, but Husayn fired on the rebel army with artillery and rifles. They got as far as the fortress walls, and Husayn fought them at the mint next to the fortress, where they had taken cover.

Ҳаким-қушбеги, Арк дарвозасини берк тутиш ваъдасини Насруллоҳ-тўрага бермаганми, ул зот аскари билан Бухоро томон силжиганини билгач, Ҳусайн-тўра унинг исёнкор тарафдорларини ўқу-милтиққа тутди. Лекин булар Арк деворлари тагига етишган, Ҳусайн-тўра эса ўз маҳрамлари ила ўзларини Арк ёнидаги пул зарбхонасининг панасига олишганди.

As a drop becomes a rivulet, and a rivulet a river, and a river a torrent, so the men broke into the fortress in a matter of hours, pouring in until they had flooded it. The wounded prince Husayn rode through the open gates as the new Emir. Despite extensive searches, the rebellious vizier Hakim was nowhere to be found. Shortly afterwards he appeared before the Emir of his own accord, carrying the severed head of his chief of artillery. ‘Forgive your servant: I was in the grip of ignorance, when this ungrateful dog started firing
cannon instead of opening the gates to Your Majesty,’ he said, bowing and scraping at length. Husayn forgave him his sins, appointing Hakim as his vizier as his father had done before him.

Томчи сув кетидан фаврак, фаврак кетидан оқим, оқим кетидан сел келганидек, бир заҳоти оламон Аркка сизди, ёпирилди, босиб кетди. Яраланган шаҳзода Ҳусайн Аркка амирсимон кириб борди. Бузғунчи Ҳаким-қушбегини қидиришди, ҳеч қаердан топишолмади. Ўшанда бир пайт, тўпчи Ражабнинг олинган калласи қўлида, Ҳаким-қушбеги Амир олдига ўзи чиқиб келди. “Бир қошиқ қонимдан кечинг, ғафлат уйқусида қолибман, мана бу кўрнамак эса сиз Хумоюн ҳазратларига Арк дарвозасини очиш ўрнига ўт очибди!” – дея, кўплаб тавозеълар қилди. Ҳусайн-тўра унинг гуноҳидан кечиб, марҳум отаси йўлида ўз вазири қилиб тайинлади.

His father was right when he said that a man can be in thrall to devils, especially if he is a writer. You have only to set to work to be gripped by your plans and inventions, and everything else seems vanity, triviality, a distraction. Over the last month Abdulla had covered reams of paper, having told himself: If I can sit down on my own this winter, I will finish writing the novel. And now all those hopes had been dashed. The Tatar NKVD man had found the manuscript, stuffed it in the only suitcase in the house, and taken it
away with him. And he was hardly going to read it, was he? Could he even decipher the old Arabic script of Uzbek? Or would he hire some black-eyed locals to read it for him?

Чиндан ҳам отаси айтмиш, жин босар экан, ёзувчи одамни. Ишга киришдингми – зикру хаёлинг ана ўша тўқимада, қолгани - фақат алахсиш, фақат чалғишдек туюлар экан. Ўтган ой ичида анча-мунча қоғозларни қоралаб қўйди Абдулла, айтмовдими: “Шу қиш узлат қилиб ўтирсам, қиссани ёзиб битказаман” - деб. Афсус, ишнинг белига от тепди. Анави анди татар топган қўлёзмасини уйдаги биттаю битта жомадонга босиб, ўзи билан олиб келди. Ўқирмикан барини? Эскичага кўзи ўтармикан? Ё яна ўзининг қора кўзларидан ёллаб, уларга ўқитармикан?

Why hadn’t Abdulla begun his story with a description of the bunch of grapes? He might have got away with saying that this was just a little sketch of a fictitious gardener. But now his pieces would certainly damn him. Thoughts have strange paths, indeed.

Нега ахир узум ғужумидан бошлагани йўқ, боғбонлар ҳаётидан бир асарча деб қўя қолармиди. Ҳали бунисини ҳам унинг бўйнига қўйишса керак. Хаёл йўллари ажиб.

He had only recently been thinking about Umar’s first marriage in 1220 to Nodira, daughter of the governor of Andijan. Abdulla had carefully worked out all the details of the matchmaking, the wedding ceremony obligatory for any marriage in the East. So why had his thoughts switched from one marriage to the other? Why does it happen that you get carried away writing about something and suddenly a single word or sentence makes you deviate from your original idea?

Мана, боягина ҳам Умаршоҳнинг биринчи тўйи ҳақида ўйлаётган эди. Андижон ҳокими Раҳмонқулибек ҳижрий 1220-нчи сана, ўз исмат пардаси ортидаги қизи Моҳларойимни Амир Умархонга узатгани ҳақида ёзиб битирганларини, қуда-андачилик машмашасию, тўй-тугун дабдабасини хаёлидан кечирганди. Аммо негадир бу тўйдан хаёллари иккинчи тўйга кўчиб кетди. Недан бу? Недан ёзаётган чоғинг ҳам бир нарсаларни мўлжаллайсану, бир сўзми, бир жумла баҳона мутлақо айрича саҳнага ўтиб кетасан. Хаёл йўллари ажиб.

A miracle of beauty! On seeing her figure and movement 
Even a hundred-year old hermit will gird his belt!

Санамки, кўрганда ул шаклу-рафтор, 
Юз яшар зоҳид ҳам тақади зуннор. 

He had only recently been thinking about Umar’s first marriage in 1220 to Nodira, daughter of the governor of Andijan. Abdulla had carefully worked out all the details of the matchmaking, the wedding ceremony obligatory for any marriage in the East. So why had his thoughts switched from one marriage to the other? Why does it happen that you get carried away writing about something and suddenly a single word or sentence makes you deviate from your original idea?

Мана, боягина ҳам Умаршоҳнинг биринчи тўйи ҳақида ўйлаётган эди. Андижон ҳокими Раҳмонқулибек ҳижрий 1220-нчи сана, ўз исмат пардаси ортидаги қизи Моҳларойимни Амир Умархонга узатгани ҳақида ёзиб битирганларини, қуда-андачилик машмашасию, тўй-тугун дабдабасини хаёлидан кечирганди. Аммо негадир бу тўйдан хаёллари иккинчи тўйга кўчиб кетди. Недан бу? Недан ёзаётган чоғинг ҳам бир нарсаларни мўлжаллайсану, бир сўзми, бир жумла баҳона мутлақо айрича саҳнага ўтиб кетасан. Хаёл йўллари ажиб.