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‘Hold on, Vinokurov,’ said one of the men who had searched Abdulla’s house. ‘Watch you don’t finish him straight away, we’ve only just brought him in! I’ve still got to interrogate the son of a bitch.’ This man, evidently in charge, wished Vinokurov a Happy New Year before he left, presumably to celebrate with his own family. |
“Қўй, Винокуров, - деб аралашгандек бўлди уйда тинтув қилганлардан бири, - келиши биланоқ ўлдириб юборма! Ҳали бу ифлосни сўроқ қилишим керак! Пока же в одиночку!” - деб буйруқ берди-да, анави онағар Винокуровни Янги йили билан табриклаб, ўзи уйга, оиласи билан байрамни кутгани кетишини айтдию маҳбусни Винокуров қарамоғида қолдирди. |
You get used to physical pain: you synchronise your breathing to its throbbing waves, you are ready for the waves to surge up and you can wait for the waves to die down. But the pains of humiliation are unbearable, and it is impossible to endure the suffering caused by your own helplessness. At first Abdulla attributed Vinokurov’s brutality to the fact that he was a Russian, but he then recalled that among the men who searched his house there had been an interrogator who spoke Uzbek like a Tatar, replacing all his ‘j’s with ‘y’s. |
Лўққиллаган оғриққа ҳам кўникса бўларкан: нафасингни оғриқ тўлқинларига мослайсан-да, бу мавжнинг авжини атайин кутасан, лекин адолатсизлик аламига чидаб бўлмайди, кучсизлик азобига бардош бериш қийин. Абдулла аввалига анавининг бағритошлигинию юрагини анор қилиб эзган бу оғриқни унинг ўрислигига йўйди, бироқ уйидан чиқаверишида афтидан андироқ татар терговчининг “ий”лаганроқ талаффузидаги гаплари эсига тушди: “Сини биз билябиз. Уртақларинг барлиғини бизгя йеткургянляр...” |
In prison you can’t avoid getting a kicking. In 1926, too, Abdulla had been beaten within an inch of his life. What made his blood boil was not the physical pain so much as the treachery of his own people, black-eyed blood relatives whom he had trusted and considered to be friends. Back then he’d begged for death’s release: that would have been easier to bear than the company of his own black-eyed friends. He’d been too young then: he hadn’t thought of his children, nor of Rahbar. |
Қамоқ борки қамоқда тепки емасдан қолмайсан. 26-нчи йили ҳам Абдуллани ўлардек тепкилашган. Унда ўзининг эгиз ўзбеклари. Лекин унда ҳам юрагини қон қилгани бу тепкилару муштлар эмас, ўзи ишонган, ўзи дўст деб тутинган қора кўзларнинг хиёнати бўлган эди. Ўшанда шу қора кўзларга қайта қараш ўрнига маҳкамадан тузукроғи уни отиб ташлашни сўраган эди. Ўшанда бебок ёшлик ғурурида на бола-чақасини, на Раҳбарини ўйлаган экан... |
Abdulla recalled a day from his own childhood, when he had dressed up in new trousers and an Uzbek gown to go to the Christmas tree celebrations. The caretaker at his Russian-language school stopped him at the school gates. ‘Have you become a kaffir now?’ the man grumbled, raising his stick to deal Abdulla a terrific blow on the thigh. The literature teacher, seeing this, hurried over and rebuked him: ‘This is a celebration of the birth of Jesus son of Mary, and Jesus is a prophet of yours!’ Abdulla’s leg was bleeding and his new trousers were stained; he ended up visiting the hospital instead of the Christmas tree. The teacher drove him all the way home, in his own carriage: a Russian, who had defended him from an Uzbek. No, generosity or meanness had nothing to do with nationality. |
Бир куни ўзининг болалигида ерли рус мактабида ўқиятган чоғи ҳавас қилиб башанг янги шим, янги чопонда арча байрамига келаётганида мактаб қоровули Холмирза-тажанг эшик тагида тутиб олиб: “Сан ҳам копир бўлдингми?” - деб балдоқи билан бола болдирига аямай тушириб қолганида, буни кўрган адабиёт ўқитувчиси Георгий Евстигнеевич, чолнинг олдига келиб, тоза сарт тилида: “Ахир Исо ибн Мариямнинг милоди бу. Исо сенинг ҳам пайғамбаринг-ку!” - деб айтганини эслади Абдулла. Ўшанда янги шимию оёғи қонга буланиб, арча байрамининг ўрнига Георгий Евстигнеевичнинг извошчигида аввал касалхона, сўнг уйига қайтган эди у. Йўқ, саҳоватинг ҳам, разолатинг ҳам миллати бўлмас экан. |
Less than a week after the bozkashi game, another message came from Chief Minister Hakim in Bukhara to Nasrullo in Qarshi. ‘Your father, our benefactor, has ended his journey on earth and set off for the true world. We keep the fortress’s high gates locked, and we have not yet announced this news to anyone else. Take this opportunity: bring your troops at a gallop to holy Bukhara and occupy the place that befits you.’ Since all the preparations for this outcome had been made, Nasrullo set off for Bukhara that same day with three hundred warriors. |
Ўлоқдан бирор ҳафта ўтар-ўтмас Ҳаким-қушбегидан яна чопар келди: “Падари бузрукворингизнинг жон қуши дорул фанодан дорул бақога риҳлат қилди. Аркнинг ундур дарвозасини берк тутгандек бу хабарни ҳам ҳануз сир тутяпмиз. Фурсатни ғанимат билиб, черик ила Бухорои шарифга чобук қатъи манозил айлагайсиз!” - дея. Тадорик кўрилган эмасми, уч юз навкар ила Насруллоҳ Бухоро томон юзланди. |
Chief Minister Hakim kept the gates shut, as he had promised Nasrullo. Nasrullo moved with his elite troops towards Bukhara, but Husayn fired on the rebel army with artillery and rifles. They got as far as the fortress walls, and Husayn fought them at the mint next to the fortress, where they had taken cover. |
Ҳаким-қушбеги, Арк дарвозасини берк тутиш ваъдасини Насруллоҳ-тўрага бермаганми, ул зот аскари билан Бухоро томон силжиганини билгач, Ҳусайн-тўра унинг исёнкор тарафдорларини ўқу-милтиққа тутди. Лекин булар Арк деворлари тагига етишган, Ҳусайн-тўра эса ўз маҳрамлари ила ўзларини Арк ёнидаги пул зарбхонасининг панасига олишганди. |
Then Chief Minister Hakim ordered rocks and beams to be hurled down from the fortress walls onto Husayn’s troops. One of these missiles struck Husayn’s head: he was bleeding badly, but would not retreat. Instead, his men – enraged at the sight of their injured prince – climbed over the barriers and rushed to the fortress gates, smashing them down with the same rocks that had been hurled at them. |
Шу учур Ҳаким-қушбеги буларнинг бошига Арк деворларидан тошу-ғўлалар ёғдириш буйруғини қилди. Тошлардан бири келиб Ҳусайн-тўра бошини ёрди. Қонга буланса-да, тўра шаштидан қайтмади. Қайтага жароҳатланган шаҳзодани кўриб, халойиқ жунбушу уштулумга келди. Басталигу чеплар оша, энди булар ўқу тошбўронга ҳам қарамай, Арк дарвозасига ёпишдилар ва ерга сочилган тошлар ила уни уриб синдиришди. |
The next day Husayn was crowned Emir, but he did not hold power for long; a mysterious illness forced him off the throne in less than three months. The doctors failed to conjure one of their miracles, and Emir Husayn left this world of sorrows. When Nasrullo heard what had happened, his thoughts turned to his master chef, who he had only recently sent to serve his brother Husayn as a peace-offering: ‘Seems the bastard took his arsenic with him’. Then he gathered his army and set off for Bukhara once again. |
Эртасига Ҳусайн-тўрани Амир қилиб тахтга кўтаришди, бироқ тахтни эгаллаганидан сал ўтмай, Амир Ҳусайн бир номаълум касалга чалиниб, масиҳонафас табибларнинг муолажа уринишлари зое кетиб, салтанати уч ойга етар-етмас дунё омонатини қўлдан бой берди. Насруллоҳхон баковулини ҳадъя тариқасида саройга юборган эди, “Маргимушини ҳам ўзи билан олиб кетибди-йўв бу аблаҳ!” - деб ўйлади ўзича у, яна черигини Бухоро томон тортар экан... |
His father was right when he said that a man can be in thrall to devils, especially if he is a writer. You have only to set to work to be gripped by your plans and inventions, and everything else seems vanity, triviality, a distraction. Over the last month Abdulla had covered reams of paper, having told himself: If I can sit down on my own this winter, I will finish writing the novel. And now all those hopes had been dashed. The Tatar NKVD man had found the manuscript, stuffed it in the only suitcase in the house, and taken it |
Чиндан ҳам отаси айтмиш, жин босар экан, ёзувчи одамни. Ишга киришдингми – зикру хаёлинг ана ўша тўқимада, қолгани - фақат алахсиш, фақат чалғишдек туюлар экан. Ўтган ой ичида анча-мунча қоғозларни қоралаб қўйди Абдулла, айтмовдими: “Шу қиш узлат қилиб ўтирсам, қиссани ёзиб битказаман” - деб. Афсус, ишнинг белига от тепди. Анави анди татар топган қўлёзмасини уйдаги биттаю битта жомадонга босиб, ўзи билан олиб келди. Ўқирмикан барини? Эскичага кўзи ўтармикан? Ё яна ўзининг қора кўзларидан ёллаб, уларга ўқитармикан? |
Why hadn’t Abdulla begun his story with a description of the bunch of grapes? He might have got away with saying that this was just a little sketch of a fictitious gardener. But now his pieces would certainly damn him. Thoughts have strange paths, indeed. |
Нега ахир узум ғужумидан бошлагани йўқ, боғбонлар ҳаётидан бир асарча деб қўя қолармиди. Ҳали бунисини ҳам унинг бўйнига қўйишса керак. Хаёл йўллари ажиб. |
Take now, for instance: is Abdulla trying to lull his sense of pain and humiliation? Or are the habits of many years taking over so that even here, lying in this God-forsaken place, after letting his head fall on the pillow and saying his evening prayer, he lets his thoughts roam free of whatever was shackling them, free of anything that has nothing to do with the task in hand: writing? But he hadn’t yet pronounced the words of the prayer, ‘I lie down in peace’… | Бадану руҳ оғриғини тахайюлига белаб, улоқтирилган ерида ўзини уйқулатмоқчими Абдулла? Ё йиллар давомида орттирган одати - бошини ёстиққа қўйиб: “Ётдим тинч” дуосидан сўнг хаёл жиловини озод қўйиб юбориши бу ерда ҳам, муздек ва зах цемент устида ўз кучини кўрсатяптими... “Ётдим тинч”ни ўқигани йўқку ахир... |
Abdulla had described every detail of Khan Umar’s first wedding: the ceremony in the state palace, the dancing and the games, the laughter and the joyful voices. The drumbeats that shook the sky’s blue dome when the people heard that the newly-weds had retired. The intoxicating joy which foamed in chalices while the sound of music filled hearts with delight and ecstasy. | Амир Умархоннинг биринчи тўйини эринмай ёзган эди Абдулла. Давлат саройидаги жамшидий базм барпосинию, ўйин-кулги ва шодлик садосини. Иқбол ноғораси овози осмоннинг зумрад гумбазини тутишинию, масрурлик овозаси одам аҳли қулоғига етишини. Қувонч бодаси шодлик қадахида кўпирганинию, муғаннийлар навоси юракларни шавқу-завқ ила ўпирганини... |
For a third time Umar sent a matchmaker to G’ozi-xo’ja’s house: this time it was the talkative Hakim, Umar’s sister’s son, a relation which made him a mahram, a man entitled to enter the harem. The Emir was wary of letting an outsider see his future bride’s beauty, but he could allow his nephew to behold her. Only the matchmakers and the girl’s father, whose white brows were wet with sweat, knew what was said during the negotiations. Realising that it was impossible to play with fire, G’ozi-xo’ja reluctantly nodded his agreement. | Ҳа, учинчи сафар Амир Умархон Ғози-хожа хонадонига совчи қилиб шайхулислом Маъсумхон-тўра ҳазратларининг ўғиллари одамохун Муҳаммадҳакимхон-тўрани юборди. Ҳакимхон айни пайт Амирнинг жияни бўлиб, маҳрамларидан эди, ўзгалардан қизғанса-да, Амир совчиланган қиз чиройини ўз жиянидан қизғанмади. Орадан не гаплар, таҳдиду-ваъдалар ўтди, фақат совчиларнинг ўзларию, оқ қошларини тер босгану дами ичига тушиб кетган Ғози-хожага маълум. Қандай бўлмасин ўт билан ўйнаб бўлмаслигини тушуниб етган Ғози-хожа чор-ночор бошини розиликда ирғабди. |
That same morning Hakim brought the girl home with him, entrusting her to the care of his mother Oftob. Delighted by the bride’s beauty, the young matchmaker recited a Persian couplet to his mother: | Ўша саҳарнинг ўзидаёқ Муҳаммадҳакимхон-тўра ул бокира қизни ўз қўшига келтириб, Амир Умархоннинг сингли бўлмиш Офтоб-онасига топширибди. Қиз чиройидан ёқасини тишлаган совчи йигит ўз онасига ушбу байтни айтибди. |
For a moment, Abdulla didn’t know whether to laugh or to weep. Was there nobody left to keep that monster company, so that he had to remind people, if only the prisoners, that he still existed? Or had he got drunk with the soldiers on guard and was yelling this at them? | Бир зумга Абдулла на кулишини, на йиғлашини билмай қолди. Бу девнинг ҳам атрофида ҳеч ким қолмабдими, ёлғизлигидан мана маҳбусларга бўлса-да ўз зорлигинию, ўз борлигини изҳор этяпти. Ё қоровул аскарлари билан ичиб олиб, уларга ҳайқирганими буниси? |
By whispering these words as if they were a prayer, Abdulla found that he could order his thoughts and see everything clearly. Hadn’t he just responded to Vinokurov’s roar with a burst of laughter? That was why he had recalled Hakim hiding behind a curtain. For a second, he felt as if he were Emir Umar’s nephew, except the curtain was now a stone wall and enclosed not a love scene but a death act. Wait, wait! This was no time to drop the reins. Watch out, don’t let a torrent of flighty thoughts sweep you away! If you ignored the superfluous florid style, the scene was described splendidly, especially the beginning and the end. Yet it seemed to have propelled Abdulla in an entirely different direction. |
Абдулла бу сўзларни дуосимон пичирлар экан, хаёли ҳар томонга тўзиди. Қийшиқпешона Винокуровнинг наъраси ҳам унинг кулгисини қистатмаганмиди ҳозиргина. У ҳам ўзини бир зумга чимилдиқ кетида писиб ётган Ҳакимхон-тўрага менгзатди, рост, бу чимилдиқнинг деворлари тош, остида эса севги эмас ўлим ҳукмрон эди. Тўхта, тўхта! Жиловни қўлингдан чиқариш вақти эмас бу. Учқур хаёлинг обқочиб кетмасин сени. Жимжимадоргилиги демаса саҳна ажойиб ёзилган, айниқса бошию кети, лекин Абдулла ундан азбарои бошқа туртки олди ўхшайди. |
Her cousin Qosim was the first to notice the changes in her. He would come to Shahrixon to help his uncle’s family tend the vegetable plot. This time, with his uncle’s blessing, he put off going home, instead finding more jobs to do around the house: repairing shoes, patching up the mud-brick wall, setting up the bread-baking oven – there was no lack of things to do – any excuse to stay on. |
Буни биринчи бўлиб ҳар кўклам Эски-Новқатдан Шаҳрихонга келиб, боғчаларни чопишдаю, экин экишда ёрдам бериб юрадиган амакиваччаси Сайид Қосим-хожа йигитча сеза бошлади. Энди у аввалгилардек ишини битирса, Сайид Ғози-хожа ҳазратларининг дуосини олиб йўлига ошиқмас, балки турли баҳона топиб, бир буларнинг барини ковушларини ямар, бир тандиру ўчоғ атрофидаги сувоқни янгилар, бир деворингиз нураб қолибди, - дея, пахса қаларди. |
At the beginning of spring, when everything else had been taken care of, Qosim stayed on to remove the winter covering from the vines and tie them to their stakes. He was so carried away by his task that he failed to accompany the elderly G’ozi-xo’ja, as he had intended, on his way to pay respects at the graves of the holy men in Eski-Novqat. At the time, Oyxon’s two younger sisters were staying with a neighbour to study more advanced reading and writing. The older boy was with his father; only the youngest, Nozim, was still at home. And, early in the morning, Nozim was still asleep. |
Ўша эрта кўклам ҳам бошқа ишларини битириб бўлгач, Сайид Қосим буларнинг икки тупгина токини очиб бериш важҳида яна Эски-Новқатига қайтишга кеч қолди. Ҳолбуки Сайид Ғози-хожа ўша куни Янги-Новқат томон Саҳобани зиёрат қилгани ўзининг 14 яшар ўғли Сайид Олим билан йўлга чиққан эди. Ойхон-пошшанинг икки синглиси маҳалладаги Отинча-бувиникига дарс олгани чиқиб кетишган, ёлғиз кенжатой Сайид Нозимхон уйда ҳали ҳам уйқусидан турмаган эди. |
The tea was left undrunk. His hands trembling with excitement, his breath quickening, Qosim picked up the ladder which lay near the vineyard and placed it against a strong supporting pillar. ‘If you hold it from this side, I’ll have the branches tied to the crossbeams in no time,’ he said. |
Чой ҳам бир чекада қолиб кетди, Сайид Қосим-йигитча, қўлу-нафаси титраганича, ишком тагида ётган нарвонни турғизиб, ишкомнинг пухтароқ бир ходасига тирадию: |
Oyxon tensed her slim figure and gripped the ladder with all her strength. Imagining himself a tightrope walker, Qosim flew effortlessly up to the top. The spring breeze tickled his cheeks and hair; he felt he was flying not just over the vineyard, but the expanse of the whole world. |
Ингичка Ойхон қаддини ростлаб, бор жаҳди билан нарвонга ёпишди. Сайид Қосим эса бирданига ўзини дорбоз янглиғ ҳис этиб, шоти тепасига учиб чиқди. Кўклам шабадаси унинг юзу-сочларини қитиқлар, у эса ўзини ишком тепасида тугул, бутун олам узра учаётгандек сезарди. |